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I'm not having a great day.

I came back to Cameri with the bf yesterday. It was 32 degrees in Turin, but it was breezy so there was some relief from the heat. I have no idea what the temp was here yesterday, but the flat was an oven when we returned. That, however, was not the worst thing. There were several (and by several I mean 13) cockroach corpses littered around the flat and there were 2 large ones on their backs playing dead, but I killed them with some hideous cockroach killing spray. Gross. It's not that there's an infestation, it's just that we live in the middle of the country and it gets pretty humid. Perfect for the little f*ckers. And they've taken a liking to our flat.

It's a good job we're moving in a little over a month.

We spent the evening freaking out at every sound and everything, real or imagined, that we saw from the corner of our eyes, thinking it was a cockroach seeking revenge.

We went to a pizzeria, I had a calzone, it was good. It slayed my two week long craving for pizza wonderfully, but I drank a little too much beer *hiccup*. During the 3 minute walk home I managed to get ravaged by my other enemies, mosquitos. I am sporting two hideous bites on my back, which thankfully aren't itchy today and haven't swelled too much, but I also have two GARGANTUAN bites on my left arm. On near my wrist and the other on the inside of my upper arm, just where it will rub painfully on my clothing throughout the day. During the terribly hot and humid night they swelled to a ridiculous size, and now my wrist is totally deformed.

I'm not impressed. Nor am I happy.

These bites are not only itchy ALL the FREAKING TIME. But they hurt whenever anything touches them.

I bought some bite relief gel this morning. It contains ammonia, so it should help, but I fear it's too far gone to make too much of a difference to my poor left arm.

I'm afraid it really is mosquito season in Novara. I'm screwed.

*sob*

Well, the horrid day came. I took my bf to Victoria station so he could get the train to the airport and I don't know when I'll next see him :'(

I had to cheer myself up and I nearly bought the softest pj's/lounging clothes ever from Primark, but I resisted. I did however buy some new nail varnish, which I've been wanting to do for a while.

Collection 2000, £1.79 each, but were on offer at 2 for £3

I quickly tried them out over my chipped red nails and the pictures weren't any better than the rushed job I did, so maybe I'll show you better pictures when I've taken the time to paint my nails nicely.

I also bought some postcards from paperchase to send to my beloved when he gets a more permanent address. It's going to be poo without him. I'm going to fill my time with learning and planning and lists. Yes, lists sound like a good way to keep busy, I'm going to get started!

Sad :(

I turned on my laptop this morning and the touch pad wasn't working, so I had to force it to restart and now it's broken :( It won't load windows properly and is stuck in a sad perpetual loop of trying to load and restarting... I'm really sad about this, I've had my lovely laptop since 2003 and it's served me well. I'm going to have to give the insurance people a call later if it doesn't decide to work, but it seems like there are some corrupted files, so I'm not hopeful about a sudden recovery of my little one.

The thought of a new computer excites the hell out of me, but I know that isn't going ot happen so I have to hope that a mircale will happen or the insurance will cover a repair job.

Fingers crossed.

A sad day.

So I found myself sitting in the garden in the sunshine this afternoon, I was smoking, enjoying a cheeky beer, colouring in a new picutre in my monsters book and feeling sad. I didn't really want to give into it, but it wasn't something I could ignore. This afternoon my bf flew off to the continent for an indefinite amount of time.

He has to renew his passport, register his residence in Italy and see a man about a job. No one really knows how long this entire process is going to take. No one knows what the outcome of the job situation is going to be, no one really has any definite answers.

This sucks.

In the meantime I have to keep myself busy. I'm going to start making things again, I have some accounting to do, I have a lot of rearranging/organising to do in my bedroom and office, I'm learning how to touch type properly, I need to learn Italian and I want to so a teaching course. Oh and I need to get my driving licence.

However, all these things won't change the fact that the bed will be empty, that I won't have any cuddles or kisses, I won't get to share stupid jokes or tickle fights on a regular basis. I sound really sappy but I'm going to miss him. The regular feeling is an instant snap of sadness and loneliness, then it clears with a joyful feeling of freedom to do what I want when I want, but is shortly followed by a long and deep feeling of pain and loneliness.

I guess I'll have to turn to the internet to drown my sorrows...